not looking for God, only for myself

Well, now we've started feeding the birds outside of our home. Which we always did, but lately we have to make sure we put out bird seed on the front steps in a little bowl so the birds won't steal the peanuts from the squirrels. Like, yesterday we had this group of starlings--which are very beautiful birds, I discovered--appear out of nowhere and sit on our front porch for hours, and they kept stealing peanuts. We haven't seen them before and we'll probably never see them again. That's how random their appearance was. And don't even get me started on the pigeons.

We're insane for taking care of these animals. Not that I'm complaining. They stay away from the windows and our cats, and they never leave a big mess, so it's no big deal.

Starting the day after today, I'm off for a week! I can get started on checking something for the Spring 2010 semester I'm aiming for, and I can be free and nerdy! I'm going to try and get my glasses fixed, and probably get some writing done.

(Also, I had this weird Teen Titans dream that wasn't about the Teen Titans at all but characters and settings were imagined in that style. I only remember a rich snotty girl forced to be some hero or something. Oh and I've been awake since five in the morning on eight hours of sleep. It was weird.)

I'm currently listening to Celine Dion. It's all your fault, flist.

I feel a little under the weather today. I've been sleeping on and off all day--I slept eight hours last night, then took a nap for four and a half hours--and my throat is starting to hurt. I see a lot of floaters in my eyes, too. Oh and the cramps I should've had a few days ago? They were delayed, but they finally arrived today. I think it's because I consciously I told myself "mmkay no more school stress now I can relax" and ... yeah, now I don't feel good. @_@; I'm sick and in pain today.)

Anyways, have another meme for the day.

Day 04 → Your favourite book

( My favorite book(s)... )

I ... I think I just got straight A's for my mid-term grades. I read it, it says straight A's, but I can't believe it.

If this turns out to be a joke/mistake, I will cry forever, because I never got straight A's before and omg. ;__;

Because I'm the nerd that I am, I decided to post some poetry I've been reading and enjoying in my classes lately. I'm in Lit 111: Poetry and Creative Writing, so it's been nothing but poems galore this past week and a half.

( A Beautiful Girl Combs Her Hair, Li Ho )

( Love Poem )

( Lorine Niedecker's Poem )

Oh my God, I am sore. My neck and shoulders really hurt, and I was up all night with my scalp hurting me. I think I'm getting sick, because I haven't felt this sore since 2006, when I graduated from high school ... lost my voice completely, got body aches, and couldn't get warm like, at all.

:/ I hope this isn't a flu bug, because this is my last week of school and I've got a paper to write tonight and tomorrow. Why couldn't I get sick last week?! I skipped my classes twice, for God's sake.

Oh, well. At least I'm off from work this week.

A more positive note: I'm thinking about posting my semi-private Mytho/Rue mix that I've had sitting in my iTunes since I've first seen the show. Would anyone be interested in a zip? (I'm wondering if I should post it publicly, because the Princess Tutu fandom hardly explores Mytho/Rue, and that makes me sad.)

We had an discussion about racism in my Woman's Creative and Performing class, in relation to a reading we're doing, and it's ... frankly, it's amazing how comfortable everyone is with each other and how open we were to share our stories, and it's even more amazing how one class can open up your eyes to things you've never noticed before. (Also, the professor told us about this book about White Privilege; a white writer stopped to think about what privileges she had and wrote a list of over 100 different privileges, such as having a bandage that looks like your skin color. I need to get that book; that thing about the bandage alone got me thinking.)

Oh. And randomly, I spoke to a stranger on the way home from school on the L. I accidentally bumped into her, sat next to her, and she started a conversation with me about her day. I really wish I had gotten her name. She seemed really nice. :(

Just checked by mid-term grades. Only two classes are up; one class is an A, the other is a C. Not bad, but I'm raising that C as soon as possible.

Despite all these nice things about today ... I can't WAIT until I go to sleep tonight. I am EXHAUSTED.

→ This week has been pretty badass. Hope the weeks to come are just as awesome! Though, I have a feeling I won't have time for ... anything anymore. I'll probably start going to work directly after school, so my entire morning and evenings will be filled these days. I also discovered that I have a lot more classes to take before I even get my associates, sonofabitch I'm so sick of school. :/ But I'll have money to pay for classes now, so I won't burden my parents anymore.

→ Got that DVD of Disney's Pinocchio. I forgot how much I love the music in that movie. Though, now that I'm older ... the Pleasure Island sequence disturbs me a lot more now. The kid turning into the donkey and freaking out never ceases to chill me. (That whale is pretty creepy, too.)

→ Meme time!

It's simple: provide a muse/character name and I will answer the following questions.

01. Full name:
02. Best friend:
03. Sexuality:
04. Favorite color:
05. Relationship status:
06. Ideal mate:
07. Turn-ons:
08. Last sexual experience:
09. Favorite food:
10. Crushes:
11. Favorite music:
12. Biggest fear:
13. Biggest fantasy:
14. Quirks in bed:
15. Bad habits:
16. Biggest regret:
17. Best kept secrets:
18. Last thought:
19. Worst sexual/romantic experience:
20. Biggest insecurity:

I may or may not be able to answer the sex questions for everyone, so I'll either not answer or try to guess. Characters are here:
kory_of_tamaran - Starfire
trickstersparx - Lightning
seemoreofhive - See-More
regainmyhonor - Zuko
oh what the hell, feelsconflicted - THE BOULDER
And any original character you can think of, or if I'm missing anyone on this list that I've played before, shoot away.

I feel pretty good today! Went to class, took a test and most likely aced it.

I've been reading the book "Inkheart." I originally purchased it for my sister, but she hasn't been reading it so I picked it up. It's good! It's a children's book, but so far I'm enjoying it, since it's one of those stories written for kids and adults. I loved these kinds of stories when I was younger. I also have to read "The Courage to Create" by Rollo May and "For Colored Girls Who Have Considered Suicide/When the Rainbow Is Enuf" for my classes.

You know. There's moments where I forget why Stephen King is awesome. Then this happens: Stephen King says Stephenie Meyer can't write. Then I remember, I laugh, and all is well in my little world.

Except that I have a headache, and I have to write my own personal vagina monologue ... when I really don't want to talk about it. I get why it's important, but I'm so 'meh' about it. :/

In the meantime, I'll help make dinner and listen to the rest of the audiobook for "Boy Meets Boy" by David Levithan. It's so unbelievably corny to listen to (I just can't dig the way the narrator is telling the story from Paul's POV), but so far it's a decent story.

I have to admit, this is a pretty emotional day for me.

I woke up at ten o'clock, in enough time to see former-presidents and their families come out, and to hear Obama announced. I had to leave in the middle of it, so I didn't get to hear them formally announce Obama as the president and wasn't able to hear his speech. But I was able to watch the end of the inaugeration in school. My Humanities professor let us out of class early to see Former-President Bush and his wife leave (oh my god i cannot begin to explain how freaking relieved i am now, and how ecstatic everyone was as they watched him leave; I thought the "da na na na" song was a little too disrespectful, but I guess that's karma).

In the meantime, I got to go to my classes. My previous Opera professor, who recognized me the moment she saw me (hooray! I think xD;), and Women in Creative Performing Arts looks like it's going to be a blast.